Spilled ink

I have experienced it a lot:
the death of that what could not  die.

For a child that's its father.
But it can also be:
meaning
that shelters 
against the great
indifference

laying outside and
without waiting
waits, 
threatens
without threatening;
sneaking
and trickling 
like silt water
in the one who drowns

The book of nature 
spreads open
with the speed of light:
the letters turn out to be murky clouds
gas and spilled ink

Where is God in language?

Sometimes
I think
I can read.